Outbursts can be a learning moment

Watching my son have therapy some days is a delight. He seems to be on point and his behavior is calm and attentive. Often, E will be laughing and giggling with his therapist. But when he is out of sync with himself and therapist, it becomes far from a delight and more of a tense and painful situation to watch. 

Today E was receiving his speech therapy and I really thought it would be easy sailing for this session and it was, eventually. When he wants what he wants and is unwilling to transition and return to therapy, rejecting to sit is when things become challenging. Refusing to cooperate isn't uncommon for even a “typical” kid. For an autistic child, it can easily be a trigger into a long uncontrollable tantrum. In our case, it is currently dealing with fighting, screaming, head butting, hair pulling and the occasional biting. They can range from one minute to twenty minutes. Sometimes, we have no idea what has triggered him off and it can happen anywhere and at any given time. 

When you see your child behaving this way there is a level of embarrassment but also desperation to help them gain control of themselves. I want to scoop him up and soothe him but I would be doing him an injustice. He needs to learn how to calm down, to control his thoughts and body in order to get himself to hear what others are asking of him. Examples of what I say are “E, look at me” or “E, calm please, calm.”

For me, I find that “E, look at me.” is a great starting point to get him to calm himself. I whisper it so he focuses more on my voice, then I follow up with the request. Once I have his attention, I say it again followed by “calm please”.  Sometimes it works right away, other times it takes what feels like an eternity making me feel like an epic failure. While he is working on calming, my internal volcano is reaching its eruption point. 

Ironically, we must incorporate the same rules for ourselves. My husband and I will tag in or tag out like wrestlers when we see that one's frustration level or tolerance has maxed out and take a breather. This is the thing about parenting, that if you're fortunate enough to have someone to tag in it's helpful. If not, I give all you single parents big props because it's not easy. Each moment with our kids is a teaching moment from us but also for us. If we show them how to stay calm they learn. And of course, when I erupt like Mount Tambora, they are watching and absorbing mamas’ actions. 

Just as I don't expect my children to be perfect, they know and see that their parents aren't either. I take blame and show that I am remorseful. After all, we are trying to raise caring human beings. So after my son has his outburst or tantrum, he almost always says “I sorry mama.” If not, we explain him what he has done and ask him to say sorry. 

A few days ago, my son had a really big outburst because I wouldn't let him run into the street. He tossed himself onto the ground in tantrum mode. As I tried to block him from crawling to the street, he bit my leg, mad dog style. It was awful. Not because he was biting me, all though that was painful. It was because part of me thought, “My God, what must the neighbors think?” He was out of control and my frustration and embarrassment grew. I grabbed him and caught myself. I was worried about the wrong thing. I needed to refocus on E and not care about neighbors. 

After I pried him off of my leg. I told him “No E, you hurt me. No biting. Calm please, calm.” And after several tries, he responded, “Calm, okay.” When we entered the house, I checked my wound to find my leg bleeding. I show him and repeated what I had told him outside. He looked at me said “Kiss?” Gave me a kiss and rubbed my leg “All better. Sorry mama.” And I am reminded that he is still not always in control of himself but learning. 

By no means am I claiming to be a great mom or that my experience will fit someone else's. I am merely sharing how things work or don't work for us, at the moment. I would love to hear from other parents on how they deal with outburst. What have you found to be successful with your child? What has been a teaching moment for you both or as a family?

With love and dedication anything is possible!