When we found out that the boys had Autism, it changed everything. All the plans and dreams we had for them, in am instant changed. I felt those dreams for them slipping away but already familiar with Autism through family members, I knew this was not a sentence. You have to quickly push yourself into acceptance. I gave myself 10 minutes to mourn the dreams I had for my sons and work to accept the dreams that they would have for themselves. They would reach their maximum potential and I would support them every step of the way.
I went into fix it mode. The let’s tackle it head on and find away. For their dad, it took a little longer and some days he still struggles with the fact that our youngest son may not adapt to society's norms the way we had hoped. We worry that both boys may not always “fit in”. Since we can't always make society accept them the way they are, we have to prepare them for the world outside their heads. That's not an easy pill to swallow. To know that your child may not have a lot of friends or any. That you talk and they may not always be with you despite being in the same room as you. That you discipline and it goes unnoticed. That you make a joke and they don't get it. That you can give instructions and they can forget it a minute later. That they don’t understand why you are constantly instructing or placing demands on them. It's not easy for either side.
Yet, if you love. Love them as much as they love you and more, the walls will come down. Their eyes brighten and their smiles gleam. They connect through love. Love what they love and be apart of their world. Acceptance WILL come for you both, you will connect and you WILL be a better parent for it.
Here is a link to a short Pixar film that was created by a father, Bobby Rubio, who was having difficulty connecting and accepting the reality of his sons diagnosis of Autism. He expresses his journey in such a poetic way, that I had to share with you today. This is just a brief trailer but impactful.
I highly recommend that you watch this short film if you have the opportunity to.  You can find it on Disney+ Pixar short films. I only wish I had the link to the actual short so that you can actually watch it for yourselves. They really should be available to everyone, it's beautiful. Pixar is doing a wonderful job with the telling of these shorts stories. Be sure to also watch Wind and Loop, two great little films that carry quite the powerful message.
Being a parents is hard and, we can be critical of ourselves. Being a parent with a child with differences isn’t any easier. There are days where all I can do is laugh, cry. Where I can lose it and, regret every word or action. Wanting your child to fit in comes from the fear of not being accepted. Society doesn’t bend to them, they bend to society. You want to protect them, but they may not see it that way. Considering this, let’s give our kids a break to be themselves, rejoice in it. Remember, the world will be hard enough on them, they don’t have feel like outsiders in their own home. Family is supposed to be their safe place, a place where they can be just who they are. Make sure you give them that.
